Keeksy's Blog
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Bitch, Moan and a Whinge
(Written at work)
Well most of you know where I work and if you don't then maybe you can guess from this entry.
Now don't get me wrong, I don't mind working there, I have many friends and I like using the register, playing with the make-up and interacting with some customers - only some!
Anyway many things have peeved me off recently and have built up over time. Take yesterday (Saturday afternoon the 28th) for example...
It was hot, the store was hot, I was hot and bored so customers - don't come and piss me off or I will piss you off and no I DO NOT CARE. I'm here to serve you, so be a nice customer or you'll get the service you otherwise deserve.
In front of my register desk is a shelf full of watches. They shit me to tears. We have to keep it neat as its one of the first things customers see when they walk past.
Now seriously, why would you come and look at watches on the shelf, mess them up, put them in the wrong spot and let them fall down, when you can clearly see I'm trying to tidy them up? For ages no one looks at them, then BANG! As soon as I'm there its like a swarm of bees trying to fight to look at frickin watches. FUCK OFF!
Then I get complaints from these bees about the bloody watches - 'What price is this?' Look on the shelf idiot or the back of the packet - the price is clearly there I'm not your slave. 30 seconds after writing that I had to do a price check for a frickin watch. Yay.
I hate people hanging around. I hate getting asked where something is a million times when they are too slack to look - its right behind you silly! What's also annoying is people bringing their kids at 8:30am in the bloody morning! I mean come on! I'm tired, I don't need your bratty kids in here, screaming and yelling absurdities and messing up the make-up at this time. Piss off and take them to the movies or some place that'll scare the shit out of them, or better still, keep them at home watching Video Hits and cartoon like normal parents would.
Another thing - and its happening right now - I've heard the same song played about 5 times from the Electronics Department. Not a bad song but by the 3rd time I'm kinda over it. They were playing Human Nature's new cd, then switched to techno. Plus above my head I have the Golden Oldies music that plays throughout the store so I'm stuck in a two song world here. At least I have variety.
As you can tell I'm quite bored and have nothing to do. I'm working 10-5 on a Sunday and have my hour break at 1pm. So now I'm doing nothing and saving what's under the desk (make-up stock) to put out after my break.
Work has its perks though. I can call someone to come and take my rubbish away, I get to use the phone and call Katie in the change rooms, I can call people to my service when I need them for something, I can't leave my area so I can just chill behind my desk and do nothing, I can use the loudspeaker so you can here my lovely voice throughout the store, and I get to play with the make-up and see the latest products come out and go to different make-up brands promotions/schools. Also I can work out how much make-up is a rip off and a waste of time - some of the things are ridiculous - like eyebrow pencils, little concealer sticks worth like $30 and so on. I only really like the lipglosses now and girls, mascaras are all the same even if they claim they plump, boost, lengthen, volumise, give shocking lengths, hydrate, curl, architect build, volume shock, or give your lashes 2000 calories - wtf? They are doing the same thing, coating your lashes and giving a slight curl. I'm yet to find one that is clump free - even the ones that say they are, have clumps.
The only people making a profit are the make-up companies. They laugh in the face of people who use make-up as we don't really need it. Can you imagine a world without it? I don't think so. We've all been brainwashed into using it and seeing it on nearly everyone. I'm guilty of using it as most of you are, but I'm not obsessed with it and don't rely on it. Kudos to the chicks who have the confidence to not wear it. We see the products on models in magazines which are airbrushed to the max, who probably aren't even wearing any make-up and it is all computer generated. We look at these advertisements and are influenced by them and want to look like the model but we're being conned into it. Working in the cosmetic industry, you realise a lot of things. Make-up is a lie and a cover-up for what you really look like. Why should you rely on make-up to give you confidence? I saw a girl at the gym, who was slim, fit and gorgeous - except for the 5cm layer of make-up on her face! Why on earth would you wear make-up to the gym? That's disgusting - you sweat like a pig (unless you're slack) and your make-up would be clogging up your pores and not allowing your skin to breathe. Gross. Another thing - guys absolutely hate the stuff!
Ok back to things that peeve me off. There's this one particular manager who keeps calling me Kirsty. This morning she even looked right at my name tag and called me Kirsty. What an idiot. Can't you read? She's a cow anyway. Then there's this chick on the front desk who is a total bitch who everyone hates. One minute she's nice, next she's barking in your face. I've lost all respect for her.
One last thing - I hate people complaining to me about shit, it's not my fault we don't have certain stuff in stock, go away, complain to the managers, or go to another store, I'm sure **** won't mind the loss especially since they are saving soooooo much money by not using the air conditioner. Tight asses. Better still go complain to the chick at the front desk - that'll make her day.
And to the guy that pulled out in front of on-coming traffic on Nepean Hwy - you fucking moron! And yes you bloody well deserved my horn you idiot. Unlike some people I can drive and know the rules - shuddup Rich and Bram :p
P.S. I was told I look like an 18 year old yesterday by James. What a sweetie - at least I'll look 2 years younger off my original age when I'm older like in my 30's or 40's HaHa!
P.P.S. Drivers with 'You're too close...BACK OFF!' written on the back of their cars are just asking for the opposite. They may as just have stuck up:
'I'm a slow driver, feel free to ride up my ass and I might get the idea of driving a bit faster or at least reach the speed limit'
Never Know
Jack Johnson- Never Know
I heard this old story before
Where the people keep on killing for their metaphors
But don't leave much up to the imagination
So I want to give this imagery back
But I know it just ain't so easy like that
So I turn the page and read the story again and again and again
It sure seems the same with a different name
We're breaking and rebuilding and we're growing, always guessing
Never knowing
We're shocking but we're nothing
We're just moments, we're clever but we're clueless
We're just human, amusing and confusing
We're trying, but where is this all leading?
We'll never know
It all happened so much faster than you can say disaster
Want to take a time-lapse and look at it backwards
Find the last word and maybe that's just the answer that we're after
But after all we're just a bubble in a boiling pot
Just one breath in a chain of thought
We're moments just combusting
We feel certain but we'll never, never know
It sure seems the same, give it a different name
We're begging and we're needing, and we're trying, and we're breathing
Never knowing
We're shocking but we're nothing
We're just moments, we're clever but we're clueless
We're just human, amusing and confusing
We're helping, rebuilding and we're growing
Never know
Knock, knock, coming door to door
To tell you that their metaphor is better than yours
And you can either sink or swim and things are looking pretty grim
If you don't believe in what they're spoon-feeding
It's got no feeling so I read it again and again and again
It sure seems the same, so many different names
Our hearts are strong, our heads are weak, we'll always be competing
Never knowing
We're schocking but we're nothing
We're just moments, we're clever but we're clueless
We're just human, amusing, confusing
But the truth is all we got are questions
We'll never know
Silly Little Thingies That Are Fun :op
Number One
I Have Kissed
[x] on the cheek.
[x] on the lips.
[x] using tongue
[x] on their hands or fingers.
[x] in my room.
[x] in their room.
[x] of the opposite sex.
[] of the same sex
[] a little younger than me.
[x] a little older than me.
[x] with black hair
[x] with curly hair.
[x] blonde hair and blue eyes.
[] with red hair
[x] with straight hair.
[x] shorter than me.
[] with a lip ring.
[x] who i truly love/loved.
[x] who was drunk.
[] who was high.
[x] in the morning.
[x] right after waking up
[x] just before bed.
[x] late at night.
[x] who I had just met.
[] who I really didn't want to kiss.
[]while i was going out with some else.
[x] on a bed.
[]in a graveyard.
[x]at school.
[x] against a wall.
[x] at a show.
[x]at the beach.
[x] in a pool.
[x] who was/is a good friend.
[x] in the rain.
[] with an std.
[x] in the shower
[x] in a car/taxi/bus.
[] on a plane.
[x] in the movies.
[x] in a bathroom.
[x] in the dark.
[]on a roof top.
[x] under water.
[x and also while they were driving ] while driving
[x] when i was drunk.
[] who didn't speak english
Number Two
50 Things
1. What is your Boyfriend/girlfriends name? Rich
2. What time is it? 4:22pm
3. What are you listening to right now? Beyonce's new song
4. What are the last 4 digits in your phone number? 0788
5. What was the last thing you ate? Tiny little Cadbury Dream
6. Who did you get this bulletin from? Meegan!
7. Was it hot today? Kinda-ish
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Haha some random calling our house asking for another random
9: What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes and personality
10. Favorite type of Food? Heaps! Prob seafood or something
11. Do you drink? Yup love cocktails and champers at the moment...need a new favourite
12. Do you smoke? Sometimes
13. Ever been so drunk you don't remember what you did? Uh yeah and I couldn't remember saying stuff that apparently I did and how I got from one place to another and meeting randoms....fun times :p
14. Hair color? Dark/light brown with blonde foils, getting more to even out tone and brighten :)
15. Eye color? Dark brown
16. Do you wear contacts? Nup but I want green coloured ones though!
17. Favorite Holiday? Christmas time- seeing family, eating lots of good food and hanging out with friends and having Boxing Day and New Years right around the corner!
18. Favorite Month? October
19. Have you ever cried for no reason? Oh Lord. Yaah
20. What is the last movie you watched? Braveheart at Leah's house
21. Favorite Day of the Year? Ummm, I’ll be a typical whore and say my birthday
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Used to be prob not anymore
23.If you can say something to someone right now what would it be? I'd tell Mum I'm bored and ask Bram when we're going to do his cool puzzle and see Chicken Little
24. Tea or coffee? Ice chocolate
25. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla
26. Do you want your friends to respond? Meh.
27. Who is most likely to respond? No-one!
28. Who is least likely to respond? Everyone!
29. What books are you reading? The Solitaire Mystery which I got off Dave who got it off Bims. Then I'll start reading Narnia that I got Mum to get me for Christmas :o)
30. Piercings? Ears. Used to have a belly-button ring and will get it again sometime as well as second pair of peircings on my ears and also a single one on the left side of my ear
31. Favorite Movie? Umm I don’t know! I watch too many movies
32. Favorite football Team? Essendon
33. Favorite band? Incubus and Pearl Jam and Linkin Park
34. Any pets? Two - cat Jake and puppy Tommy
35. AIM? Naaaah maybe
36. Dogs or cats? Both
37. Favorite ice cream? Reduced Fat Vanilla at Dairy Bell- tastes better than normal vanilla, peppermint choc chip, bubblegum and cookie dough :o)
38. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to? oOo Indeed.
39. Are you taken or single? Taken
40. Do you love or have you ever loved someone? Yup I love lots of people. All in different forms
41. Does anybody or has anybody loved you? Yup
42. Are you still friends with your exes? Several of them I am but some I don't talk to often
43. Do you like to travel by plane? Yes
44. Right-handed or Left-handed? Righty
45. If you could be with someone right now, who would it be? I already am with someone
46. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two and my teddy bear :p
47. Would you ever get a tongue ring? Nah
48. Do you have a tattoo? Nope, not yet I'll be getting two soon though!
49. Favourite soft drink? Coke, Fanta or the Coles brand mineral water ones specially the purple one
50. Favourite TV Show? Lost
Number Three
Mark with an X the things that are true.
Appearance
[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[soon] I have a tattoo.
[only sometimes] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I've had braces.
[sometimes when I read] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[I used to] I have more than 2 piercings.
[Used to] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[jokingly or just around them dunno if actually AT them] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x they were] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[x my parents have, that count?] I've lost a child.
School/Work
[x deferred from uni – so technically ] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[] I am almost always doing my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[] I've been fired.
Embarrassment
[] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.
Health
[] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[] I've gotten stitches.
[] I've broken a bone.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[soon to have] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[x caught it off my brother when we were little] I've had chicken pox.
Travelling
[x, how mucht is a mile? probably] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico.
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I've been to Europe.
[Will one day to go on safari with Mum and Cam] I've been to Africa.
Experiences
[x a little bit] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pyjamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x, I think I did when I was little ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[I really want to] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x Crashed go-karts] I've crashed a car.
[Will be this Winter!] I've been skiing.
[] I've been in a play.
[] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[Will be this Winter also!!] I've been snowboarding.
Relationships
[] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[Never have and never would] I've cheated in a relationship.
[] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger
Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[] I've been suspended from school.
[x at work, while working] I've witnessed a crime.
[] I've been in a fist fight.
[] I've been arrested.
[] I've shoplifted.
Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x maybe not regularly but occassionaly] I regularly drink.
[x couple of times] I've passed out from drinking.
[] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[] I've smoked weed
[] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[] I've eaten shrooms.
[] I've popped E.
[] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[] I've done hard drugs.
[x they can be yummy ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] I've taken anti-depressants.
[] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying from a bad dream.
Death and Suicide
[] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[] I've planned my own suicide.
[] I've attempted suicide.
[] I've written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[] I own something from Hot Topic.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collect comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[] I own something I got on e-bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.
Random
[] I can sing well.
[] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x maybe] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[x I get others to kill spiders for me, I hate them! ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I dislike hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[] I am a morning person.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x sometimes] I'm a snob about grammar.
[Not a fanatic but I like my sport] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I love being neat I like for things to be orginized.
[] I love Spam.
[] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[The ones at Intencity yeah] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x haha my old high school days] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[sometimes if I'm in a rush] I eat fast food weekly.
[x seen them too] I believe in ghosts.
[] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers were totally honest.
Number Four
1. WHO'S BED DID YOU SLEEP IN LAST NITE? Mineohmine
2. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Black Roxy one
3. DO YOU HAVE A CHRISTMAS TREE UP? Not anymore coz Christmas is over
4. LAST KISS? This morning
5. LAST PHONE CALL? The random
6. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Was listening to Beyonce, and then radio in the car and now listening to Cam watch Little Nicky
7. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? KJ, Keeks, Keesky, KJ-Wa, Little Good, Ribeena, Kaaj, Kaajie Girl, Cupcake
8. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR UNDIES RIGHT NOW? Pink Bonds with flowers
9. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? Yup Tommy our Golden Retriever puppy and Jake our cat
10. WHAT'S YOUR DAD AND MuM'S MIDDLE NAME? Andrew and Anne
11. WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEETS? Burgundy
12. WOULD YOU RATHER GIVE OR RECEIVE A FOOT MASSAGE? Receive coz I'm standing on my feet on the time at work!
13. NAME A TEACHER YOU HAD THE HOTS FOR? Sports teacher in Sydney that taught us self defence and I got picked to show an example of a move. His name was Justin :p
14. HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU RIGHT NOW? Umm bout $20 in my wallet
15. WHO'S THE 4TH PERSON ON YOUR RECEIVED CALL LIST? Anton, Bram's brother
16. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE? Umm Love Generation but I'm about to change it coz I'm over it
17. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT? Sleeping
18. WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU SENT SAY? It was from Ness talking about a business meeting
19. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH? Some...mainly on celebrities or cute guys I see occassionaly :p
20. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you see? My face duh
21. What'sa word that rhymes with "TEST": chest
22. Favorite planet? Venus
23. Who is the 4th cell person on your missed call list on your mobile? I don't have a 4th person coz I answer most of my class lol but third was Bram
26. Do you "label" yourself? Fricken stupid, I think labels are stupid. Be who you want when you bloody well want
27. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing: Green Havaianas
28. Bright or Dark Room? Bright and soon to be painted Buttercup Yellow and Cornflower Blue haha Rich!
29. Ever "spilled the beans"? About myself and other stuff
30. What's a saying that you say a lot? "That's awesome!!" "What? Huh?" coz I'm so clueless
31. Who told you they loved you last? Prob Rich or Mum
32. Last furry thing you touched? My doggy or kitty
33. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? One
34. How many drugs have you done in the last 3 days? I don't take drugs I take vitamins
35. Favorite age you have been so far? I spose either 16 or 18 but I'm liking 20 coz I can't wait till I'm 21!
36. Your worst enemy? Hmmmm a couple of people
37. What is your current desktop picture? The one of the island in the clear blue water I love it!
38. What was the last thing you said to someone? "What?" to my brother like 20 seconds ago
39. If you had to choose: a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret? I don't reget anything so prob the money so I could take Mum and Cam on a holiday and buy them and myself some stuff
40. Do you like someone? I'm wih the guy I like and I like lots of people in different ways