This is your life...are you who you wanna be?

Well I was meant to write this a while ago when I had everything in my head at the time, and now I have forgotten some vital stuff...I'll see how I go remembering them.

Last post I wrote I was told was quite different to the other posts, I guess a bit more serious than the silly, random, crazy KJ! Well expect more of that...the serious stuff I mean. I guess this Blog thing is an outlet for whatever I choose to write whether its serious or silly, gets things out of my head and down in words.

Title of this post is from Switchfoot's song- This Is Your Life. Pretty good song..I love them. But the words ask a question that people should ask themselves. Are you happy with yourself? Do you think you could live your life differently? Are you growing up to be who you want to be or are you turning into something you're not?

I'm happy with who I am. I think everyone should. You shouldn't have to put on a facade to hide the real you. You can keep your secrets and dreams inside you, but the rest you should let the world know who you are and what you are about. I have fantastic friends, a loving family and a great life to live. If you don't know already I have always had a very strong positive outlook on life and I disregard people who don't appreciate their life. This strong positive outlook has been fuelled even more by the recent passing of my Dad. I wear two black bands on my wrist, one for my Dad and the other for my Uncle (Dad's little brother) who also passed away, early 2004.

Music plays a huge role in my life. Everyday I listen to it, whether it is the same cd I have listened to over and over again, something old or something new, anywhere, anytime. I need it daily and I listen to it without fail. The best time is at night, I lay in my bed with my discman, and the music helps me think about A LOT! Eventually it sends me off to sleep.

Well today is the day I had to make a huge choice, with regards to my future. I thought I had it all planned out- I was planning on deferring my Uni offer. I got offered my first preference of doing Marketing at Monash Caufield. I was pretty stoked! But before all that happened I didn't think I would get in and I thought if I did, I wanna take a year off and just work and save my money. I'd spoken to heaps of people about this option and they thought it was also a good idea. I mean, I have been at school for 14 years of my life, I need a break, a fresh mind and the motivation to keep going. Yet a phone call from mum today counteracted my aspirations. So thinking about Mum's words (and knowing from the past that I should listen to her, cause she always ends up being right!) I accepted my offer with the notion of knowing that I can defer later on depending how I go. I guess deep down I really wanted to go. But having two jobs is hard but the thought of Uni is exciting...despite from what I have heard. It is a different experience for everyone and you should trust yourself and your gut instinct and not base your decisions on other's bad/good experiences.

Well that said, I'm off on another whirlwind adventure! Gotta get myself organised, go to Smiggle to get lots of cool stationery, buy textbooks and drive myself crazy trying to balance study and two jobs...I think Dairy Bell will get the flick soon enough cause management there is screwed and they can go fuck themselves! LOL

OK I think I have said all I needed to say...maybe you'll cop a crazy post soon enough, cause being serious is quite draining after a while!

Have fun!

Keeks