it's all in my head...i think about it over and over again...

Pasta is yum, specially after its heated up for lunch from dinner the previous night. Tastes awesome!

Got up at 2 today...lil slacker I am, but I was reading in bed so ner! And also thinking....I think too much and I know I am not alone when I say that. I truly hate it sometimes that I think too much...I mean why am I wasting my time thinking about petty things or thinking about other stuff and not getting any answers? It only brings up more questions which, later on, will be thought about again!

But I spose it is good in a way...it's comforting and sometimes I can answer my own questions by going through everything. I know it sounds silly but thinking about stuff can sometimes calm my mind. I can't tell you what I think about, mainly because there is so much and its kinda personal but if you ever got your hands on my diary...

I guess this lets you into my head a bit and what I think about. This blog is like a grain of sand at the beach of the things I think about...maybe that is a bit extreme! But you get the jist.

Yesterday I was doubting myself about who I am and telling my dear friend Illy. I was saying that since I know I am gullible and other people know I am gullible and I am stupid most of the time...why do they like me? She was shocked to hear this and told me straight away that people like/love you for who you are and not something your not, so don't change or stop being who you are. She also said that I am fun to be around and people are drawn to that, and that I am a smart girl and people know that too. I know she is right and I knew everything that she said deep down, but I guess I was just having an odd KJ moment.

Anyways enough of this talk...I'm having doubts about BB. As much as I would love to go on the show I don't think now is the right time. Too much going on my life. Maybe when I watch it this year (if I decide to; I might hate it again) then I will either be glad I didn't go on there because the housemates have to do some ridiculously outrageous challenge OR I will wish I was in there having fun and charming my way to $1 million! (haha Rich)

Well enough said. Might write later. Got my cousin's 21st tonight! Ciao

Keeks

Songs I'm loving at the moment are Dare You To Move by Switchfoot and Over And Over by Nelly and Tim McGraw.